“I’ve got this.”
“I can do this.”
That’s what I kept telling myself every time I thought I would lose it at a shrieking toddler or screaming baby earlier this week.
After a blissful (haha) month together my lovely husband returned to work last weekend leaving me expecting the worst with our two daughters in tow.
Have I survived?
If you had asked me that question a couple of days ago I might be behind bars for smacking you over the head.
But despite a few rough moments, it wasn’t as bad as I thought!
I’m not going to lie I did find things a bit overwhelming at times and I often thought about hiding in the cupboard!
But reminding myself that nothing the girls did was to intentionally annoy me (most of the time) kept me going.
I often turn to the most influential woman in my life for advice (my beautiful mum) to help me through both the good and bad times.
And this was no exception.
Along with telling me that “I’d be fine”, she also reminded me that this time in my children’s lives is a short one and will pass in the blink of an eye.
As my Mum’s baby, I’m sure she’s speaking both wistfully and with a wealth of experience under her belt!
After all my older brother and I are not only still alive to tell any tales but also bringing up our own children.
I’ve found that while everyone’s experience is different, to me, parenting is both rewarding and one of the hardest things I’ve ever done!
Even more so juggling a toddler with a new baby but we seem to be finding a rhythm that works….most days!
And although he doesn’t know this (probably because I spend more time snapping at him) but I do appreciate the help of my husband, I just have a funny way of showing it.
But back to that shrieking toddler and screaming baby….my little humans who have no choice but to love me unconditionally, for now!
Yes they will push my buttons.
They will make me cry, scream and yell.
They will make me smile and laugh, both with them and at them.
No doubt, once they’re older, they will gang up on me and see what they can get away with.
And yes, one day they will probably hate me too.
But it means I will have done something right.
I will have been and continue to be their mum.
And let’s be honest if they don’t like whatever I throw at them, there’s a funny little quote I found for my mum years ago they might just hear….
“I brought you into this world and I can take you out again”.